"Not everything is gonna be the way you think it ought to be", sings Sheryl Crow as I sit in my favourite chair, scratching out words in black ink that don't capture the emotion.
I should've written this years ago. I don't know why I didn't.
She raised us on her own, put food on the table, and "J's" on my feet.
She's loved me unconditionally through my most reckless of days.
I'm an observant little bastard; trust me, I notice everything, though I pretend not to at times.
It was through watching her that I learned the most.
There are a lot of lessons to be taught along the hard-knock road to becoming a man. Ironically, I learned them all from a woman.
Watching her life through my eyes, my world took shape, installing the fundamentals of who I became today.
Never get too high. Never get too low. Don't celebrate. Don't hold pity parties. Don't make things to be more important than they are. Nothing in life defines you - you define yourself.
And above all, I learned this:
Most people are a slave to the fairy tale life that they lead in their head. They want life to unfold exactly as they expect it to, becoming victims of themselves, critical judges of their own self-worth.
Addicted to over-thinking, questioning every decision, scared to make a mistake and ruin any opportunity to live the daydream they see in their head.
It can be difficult to be happy when you hold yourself up to unrealistic expectations of a fairy tale that does not exist.
Life unfolds in the most uniquely beautiful way. Its irony and fate provide a story much greater than one you could create.
Don't miss the beauty of your story unfolding by focusing on the commercials inside your head.
Know what you want, believe that you're worth it, and then let go of how it has to come.
Live your life, be present, authentic, and always follow your heart because life's greatest gifts are the ones you don't see coming, or in her case, the two!
- Jeff Moore